Wednesday, October 26, 2011

Two Dreams...


I was on the phone with my grandpa who doesn't know I am gay, I was IN MY CHILDHOOD CLOSET while I was on the phone with him, he was kind of side stepping the issue asking me if I was 'seeing people'. As I talked to him there was a photo of him I taped to the wall. Then I struggled to tape another photo of me and my partner underneath that but the tape kept coming loose and I was standing on the bottom drawer of my dresser (which was in my closet as a child) I was trying to tape the picture high enough.


I was walking on a sidewalk bridge outside, the bridge was really high in the air, near the tops of a lot of the sky scrapers, so if I looked down one side I couldn't see the ground because there were wispy clouds about halfway up the sky scrapers. The two most prominent buildings were two 'twin towers'. I looked out in front of me and I felt I was up so high I could see the bend of the earth in the horizon, it was so beautiful. I looked to the other side of the bridge and there was a large river leading to the ocean, the sun was so gentle and there was a boat going out to sea. Also so beautiful. I looked down and saw the 'ancient desk' under the bridge 'where all the animals are made'. I looked again out over all of the vast beauty and I started crying. I cried and cried and my only thought was "why do we hurt each other, why is there pain we cause each other, look at the earth and how old it is and how beautiful." **later I told this dream to my partner and she said that I had been crying in my sleep.